EVERLANE sweatshirt / ACNE jeans / CÉLINE sandals
Sometimes I forget what the actual goal is.
I had a moment today where I was jolted back into reality by a blog post over at 12:04. And as much time as I’ve spent trying to figure out my modes and motives and reasons behind seasons of shopping vs. seasons of fashion asceticism, I still forget what the actual goal is.
When I find myself in the throes of a shopping season, it’s difficult to step back and remind myself of the larger point of the pursuit. Why do I want this? Is this thing going to help or hinder me in some way? Why does it matter so much that I get this? These are simple questions and should be easy to remember, but the prospect of getting “that ___ I’ve been looking for/waiting for/longing for” can be very distracting.
I’m trying to not be so rough on myself about it (it’s all part of the journey that everyone talks about being on, right?!?), but I still find it hard to blur that line between knowing better and doing better. And ultimately, that is the goal; to know what I should be doing and have my actions measure up.
And this goes well beyond the context of clothing. The same applies in all other areas of my life, I’d say. I want to have only what I love and use so I don’t feel encumbered by the maintenance and storage of the excess. I want to have things that feel very me, and I want to be unbothered by the constant deluge of new things that are begging to be bought. I want to appreciate enough because I have enough.
But that’s easy to forget when I need a hat because I hear winter gets cold and rainy here and this whole no-hair thing is probably going to get very uncomfortable…and also a bomber jacket because it’s fall and transitional jackets are a thing…and the Célines happened because it had to happen (HOLY GRAIL)….
It’s all part of the journey. It’s all part of the journey. It’s all part of the journey.